2005-07-22T05:36:00.000-07:00

Ok I think I definately am one of the stupidest people! I know I do crazy stuff sometimes, but it has never gotten me into trouble before. Why does this? Something that could be so simple yet is so complicated, and competely fucked up. It's just total bullshit. I think that I do stupid things becuase of the rush that I get off of it. The adernaline from AmateurFacials .com runs throughout my body and everything could disanimate, it doesn't even matter anymore. Yet I also feel this way when things don't turn out, like I don't even give a shit about being here and life just is one big fucken lie. Hmmmmm maybe a theory that I should put to the test. There is something that is buried inside and it will not matter anymore. Then yes what I do will be even more stupid than what I did but it will serve it's purpose for the time until I find something that can distract me for awhile. Just toying with Teen Webcams though although it would be quite comical in a sense, don't think so? Then again maybe I will be the only one laughing. It will happen again though, then maybe something new, and yet again stupid will happen and I can only dare to laugh once more. Fuck it!

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